confusing mind

what im should if im dun wan all thought stuff??
feel vey messy with my area...
a lot of assignment waiting im to finish it..but still dun hv d mood to finish it..\
am i not ready for this new stuff?
im not clever...not smart at all..what cn im improve it within this few month...
im feel very disappointed with my ownself..
please wake up..this is your last chance~~!!

好久没来了。。。

有一年了吧。。。
忘记了密码，忘记了户口。。。
最近在一堆书集中，找到了回到这里的道路。。。
太多的事情发生了，也随着光阴的流失，落幕了。。。
就算我多想回到以前，还没做决定的那一刻。。。
回头也是惘然吧。。。
还有四天。。。中六生涯正式告一段落。。。
曾经的快乐，难过，悲哀 都会离去。。。
我还可以回到以前的我吗。。。

I MEET WITH ACCIDNET!!!

may of 29---OMG!!!
i just away from home 5 minit...
accident to me...
i fall down from motor...
i WAS HURT!!!
but i not the serious one...

this part-->apologize to my friend, kuen
kuen...i know you won't know this blog...
but i will tell you...if got the time...
at here...please let me say a word'SORRY'
i really feel sorry to you...
if i not late wake up...
if you not the one who fetch me...
if we are not late to school...
if i not wake up late n chin wan to drive alone to school...
if i not your friend...
if i can stop you don't ride so fast...
you won't be HURT SO SERIOUSLY!!!
YOU WON'T!!!you won't!!!
sorry...sorry...sorry...
if not me...
you won't hurt...
sorry...
sorry...
sorry...

now your leg is terseliuh...
you need rest more...
you know anot...
sit on kerusi roda is not so good ...
left few day...the school will be start...
i really hope your leg will be better than now...
really...i really hope...

please let me say again to you...
sorry kuen...

may of 12...

what a terrible day!!!
i still keep my angry at the morning...
i wake up without clock...
i no mood at all...
when my friend come and fetch i just go with her...
without tell my parent...
my tear coming out when i saw that acs school...
why i can't change to here...
in my mind i keep thinking yesterday what my parent tell me...
i so angry ...
my tear keep falling ...
i can't control at all...

after that i feel no mood in school...
at that time..don't said anything about change school..
my tear will come soon...
what a SAD DAY!!!

may of 11...

this day is my 1st day start school...
the first day all form 6 student start school...
that gov send me to sam tet school...
i go with my two friend by car...
when v reach...other fom6 student all sit on floor...
i'm looking at it...
in my mind..
am i late ...
duno...no one can answer me...
then v go inside the school...
overall see..girl is more than boy...
i saw most of my clever friend already sit at there...

after that...
got some prefect call all form 6 student go inside that hall...
first of all,gt briefing welcome...
then call us write name in register form...
and then paid RM36 for fee...so expensive...

i go ask one of the committee at there...
can i don't pay money for a book...
because my brother already got a lot ...
but that committee said need so many steps...
after that all steps then i can get my money back...
wHat the!!!
i igrone it la...
this is because all girl also paid money...
i don't want be the special...
so i borrow siew 'money...
because i don't bring money come...SENGAJA don't bring...
siew~really thak you... you borrow money to me...

after paid money...i got the thing all from what i paid...
that t-shirt no so nice...
why choose white...you know it will easy dirty ?!
whatever la...now alrealy take it...

after all...principal,asis principals...
all come out to briefing...
wah!!!
you know i so boring...
keep on listening...
because that time i don't have interest to listen...

finally got the change school form...
thank you..pui feng n bee ling...
thank to help me take form...
after that ...gt playing game for tomorrow...
take a piece of paper...then find group member..
around 12.30pm..
school dismiss...so happy...
finally over ...
bt i need go write a test for change school geh...
then i back home around 3pm ...

back home...i tell my mom i alrady take the form ...
and then i want change school to acs...
my mom said why so fast take form...
that time she don't have so big response...
but at night ...i just told my dad...
i want photostat about change school form...
he SAID NOT NEED!!!
GOV SEND U TO WHERE...THEN YOU SHOULD STUDY WHERE!!!
i feel so ANGRY...
i can't understand him...
i argue with my parent...
but in my heart...maybe i can tell them...
study art got many benefit...
but just in my heart...
so i don't tell anything...
i keep my angry to bed...

can you heard my heart sound...

i wanted to change school...
while i still not yet in sam tet school...
but why...you don't let me change...
keep on listen what the other aunty or uncle said...
why tell me why...
just because their daughter or son can't go in sam tet study...
that is their's PROBLEM...NOT ME!!!
what the suck school ... so good...
all people keep on saying SO GOOD...SO GOOD!!!

自来狗。。。

today , my house got come one 自来狗 ...
this dog very cute...bt it is male...
when i saw it...my dog is fighting with it...
its'fur become very dirty...very wet...
but it look still same...cute...
it keep follow me when it saw me..
when i go bath,it wait me at outside bathroom...
wat such a cute dog...
after that...when i walk left it follow...
walk right ..it follow also...
haha...
i can observe that this dog only follow girl...
and it take my hand n leg like female dog...
wan make love with my hand n leg...
oh dear...
dog become stupid?
i duno...